The wait...

As I am writing this I am in pain from an upper respiratory bug that floored me this weekend. Should I be on my computer instead of in bed resting? No, probably not. But I felt the need to write. Sitting down I didn't have much already planned to say though. Reviewing my weekend, however, I probably need to get some words off my sick chest.

A couple gigs that I had scheduled were canceled and I was a bit upset because I really needed the money. I was sick, though, and really should have not been working anyhow. But instead of going home I went out and I am now paying the price. I tried to make things happen instead of listening to myself and listening to my heart that was telling me to get some rest. When ever I try to make things happen in my life according to my schedule I loose. This was no exception. I felt desperate for work, for the money that will get me further along in my career so that I can achieve my every desire for a successful photography career. But in the end I just ended up hurting myself.

In my life things have always worked themselves out in a time frame that was not what I had in mind. I am impatient sometimes, wanting what it is that makes me happy and what my heart desires. I want to have it now, on my schedule. In reality the cosmic forces that know better than me dictate the best time for these things to happen. Reality sucks sometimes, but I have learned all good things come to those who wait. I feel a change in my life and a renewed sense of myself. Sometimes that can get the best of me. Life has been trying to teach me patience for 34 years and I have yet to learn that lesson. No matter, I will look back as my life unfolds and say to myself "It's true, all good things to those who wait".

I hate waiting....