I found myself staring off in to the distance, just looking at the world around me. I realized I had been doing this for quite some time when I came to thinking "how long was I away?". I get lost inside my head sometimes playing scenarios like movie reels; just thinking. My thoughts jump from the mundane to the spectacular but I seem to be in a constant state of deep thought. Even while I type this my mind is off somewhere. I can do this even while I am fully functional in the reality of life; ordering coffee, shopping, sitting on a park bench. It's not like I have a split personality or some schizophrenic disorder. It's just always been my way of moving through life.
As a result of this I have an ongoing inner monologue that steers me and shapes my decisions in life like a director of a cinematic film. Most often it pushes me creatively and forces me to see the world with a parallel universe beside the real universe. I look at some inanimate object and my mind is photographing it or I am reconstructing it in to a piece of art. I see people pass by me and wonder if they ever see it too. By the looks on their faces I'd say they don't for the most part. Sometimes this makes me feel like a ghost wandering among the living as they pass through me never taking notice to the things I see.
Through my photographs, my art and my words I bring the ghost in to the light of the living, sharing my visions and my creative self. Out on the end of a limb I hope doesn't break leaving me in a heap on the ground. It's tough to put my work out there to be criticized or admired because it's a part of me; a tangible rendition of my deep thinking. I push myself to create constantly the things in my head I see and push myself to share them with you. The world I live in is beautiful and if I can share that with even one person it makes it all worth while. If I can show people that the entire world has beauty down to the smallest atom perhaps I will make a positive change in minds of the people around me.
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